C'mon Allen, don't let some foul mouthed meatball define who you truly are. If crap comes out of both ends of him, then he really doesn't know which way is up! Here are a couple of things that I hope gives you strength....
"You can measure a man by the opposition it takes to discourage him."
---Robert C. Savage
You are stronger than his words and you have a right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Those are the things our forefathers promised us as our rights. Now, what is the pursuit of happiness?.....That is up to you to find, but knowing you for a couple of years I would say it is riding a cub cadet. Also, here is another quote, but you have to watch the video link to fully understand what it means....
"Doubt has killed more dreams than failure ever will." ---Parker Mantell
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iICFjbIAs7Y
Here's to you buddy...
Cub Cadet 123